I Have a Dream :)

I am so proud of my sister who has been accepted in STIKES Bethesda (one of the best schools of nursing in Yogyakarta), she'll start her new life in the dorm start from next Tuesday. 

I admired how she keep struggling on her dream, being a nurse, since she was adolescent. It was my mom who first told her to be a nurse because my mother's dream was being a nurse too. She didn't able to study in nursing school due to the economic problem at that time. Why she didn't told me, her eldest daughter, to be a nurse to accomplish her dream? Well, since I was a toddler, I am a coward girl. I'm afraid with many things; blood, dark, snake, ghost, a loud sound, crowd, math, number..... Hahaha, that's why my mom never have any intention to create me to be a nurse.

If my parents' friends or relatives ask me and my sister what and who will we be, my sister will directly say 'I want to be a nurse!'. Contrary to me, I will always say, "Umm, I don't know." It doesn't mean that I am jealous and envy with my sister. I don't! As I said before, I proud of her, sincerely proud. She will be a good international nurse in the future, I believe it :)

Talking about dream, I am a person who keep changing my dream. I cannot stay only in one dream for a long time, I keep changing it time to time.

Why did I make this blog?

Been asking this question to myself all day long. Why did I make this blog? Was it to get famous or was it to learn writing in English?

The very first time this question came up was after realized that I opened my blog more than 10 times in a day I guess, and the first thing that I checked was comments and the followers. Then, tonight, after discovered what bloglovin is, I realized that I am no longer in my previous vision in making this blog anymore. At first, I said to myself that this blog is only to practice, nothing to expect whether people want to read or to follow it or not, it didn't really matter. But theeennn, after I did some blogwalkings then the feeling wants-to-be-like-others came. To be honest, this is one of my weird personalities, I am a kind of person who can quickly wants to be somebody then will follow someone's style or behavior because I want to be like him/er though I know somehow this isn't right.

Before I made this blog, I was thinking about what was the focus of this blog would be? Should I do some reviews on skincares and make-ups like many blogs I've visited? Or should I just blabbing my thoughts here so this blog would be like my previous blogs? Or...I don't know.

Perhaps, this is what people said about "identity crisis". When you cannot be yourself, always wanna be like anyone else. I don't want to blame myself in this case because I don't do anything wrong. In my opinion, this is just another way to grow up, somehow I believe this part will sculpt me to be who I really am.

Well, I'm a nineteen years old girl though, there will be so much paths to be chosen ahead. As a Christian, I believe Jesus will lead me somehow, He will help me to be a person that really suits me and His plans for me.  Hopefully, I will not seeking for attentions (comments, readers and followers) for this blog anymore because, the answered of the question is I made this blog for practicing my skill, developing myself and sharing what I have. Que sera sera, will do what I wanna do with my best then =D