Been asking this question to myself all day long. Why did I make this blog? Was it to get famous or was it to learn writing in English?
The very first time this question came up was after realized that I opened my blog more than 10 times in a day I guess, and the first thing that I checked was comments and the followers. Then, tonight, after discovered what
bloglovin is, I realized that I am no longer in my previous vision in making this blog anymore. At first, I said to myself that this blog is only to practice, nothing to expect whether people want to read or to follow it or not, it didn't really matter. But theeennn, after I did some blogwalkings then the feeling wants-to-be-like-others came. To be honest, this is one of my weird personalities, I am a kind of person who can quickly wants to be somebody then will follow someone's style or behavior because I want to be like him/er though I know somehow this isn't right.
Before I made this blog, I was thinking about what was the focus of this blog would be? Should I do some reviews on skincares and make-ups like many blogs I've visited? Or should I just blabbing my thoughts here so this blog would be like my previous blogs? Or...I don't know.
Perhaps, this is what people said about "identity crisis". When you cannot be yourself, always wanna be like anyone else. I don't want to blame myself in this case because I don't do anything wrong. In my opinion, this is just another way to grow up, somehow I believe this part will sculpt me to be who I really am.
Well, I'm a nineteen years old girl though, there will be so much paths to be chosen ahead. As a Christian, I believe Jesus will lead me somehow, He will help me to be a person that really suits me and His plans for me. Hopefully, I will not seeking for attentions (comments, readers and followers) for this blog anymore because, the answered of the question is I made this blog for practicing my skill, developing myself and sharing what I have. Que sera sera, will do what I wanna do with my best then =D